This is a guide for my family and friends about my life as a Peace Corps Volunteer in Cape Verde, Africa. I teach English as foreign language to high school students in Boa Vista, Cape Verde. Also as a disclaimer, the comments expressed here are solely of the author and do not represent the United States Peace Corps, the American Government, or any other governing body.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

I sit here on a useless Monday afternoon. My eyes are tired and heavy from crying all day. I have lost my luggage for the second time in three weeks, and because I live in the most disorganized country in the world, they’re probably lost in the abyss of missing things. I have fought with airline workers on three islands and have managed to find the location of only one of the two bags I brought from London, England. It makes me think, once again, about my situation in life and the way my view changes with the surroundings I’m in. A week ago I was in a house of 15 people yet feeling liberated and free for the first time in a year. I came home to an empty apartment and a town of 2,000 people and I felt suffocated and compressed on my way to buy bread the next morning. And yet the camaraderie I felt at the music festival over the next few days could not have been matched anywhere else in the world. The people here, while so disorganized and at times backwards, can be so giving and sharing. Coming back from England has liberated me and yet confused me all at the same time. I felt relief coming back to my little apartment in my small town in the middle of nowhere and yet regret at leaving my family behind. I can see myself holing up here for the rest of my life hiding from the rest of the world and its complications, yet I can’t imagine not living the rest of my life in the United States. I feel comfortable with the people here but I ache for my family and friends I left behind. It’s been a year, and I have another year left here. I don’t know what that year will bring, and I want it to end yet am nervous for it’s culmination because then what? There are choices and decisions I dread making and a life I must choose for myself. I know I can’t have any help, nor can I please everyone with my choices. I feel torn, and I don’t like it. Being here makes me so happy and yet sick to my stomach. I miss so much from my previous life but life here is unparalleled. I know that I have done nothing but complain nearly the entire time I’ve served here, and I’m sure this blog will come as a slight shock to many of you. I’m just trying to convey a little of the confusion I’m feeling, though I’m sure I’m doing a miserable job. I guess my trip to England put my life here in perspective, one I wasn’t expecting to find.

The missing bag with all my clothes in it doesn’t help. The fact that I can’t just drive to the airport in Praia doesn’t help either. On a side note, I would like to thank all my little “bear” friends  for sending stuff with my family. I will send you a proper thank you I promise, when I don’t have 8 trillion things on my worried mind. But Derek, Stan, and Danielle, thank you so much for all you did. I really appreciated that stuff. Although, it’s all currently lost, let’s hope and pray that I will see that stuff (along with my clothes) again. I miss you guys.

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Nadia, you are in transition with an added stressor (lost luggage.) Take a breath. It will all work out. You are brilliant to recognize the decisions you will be facing. You don't have to make a decision today. I have no doubt in your ability to make good choices. One step at the time. When the time comes, you will know the whys, wheres, whats, etc. We are all very proud of you. Hang in there! Let us know if you need anything. We love you!
Aunt Karen and the "Baker Clan"

18 August, 2007 20:03

 
Anonymous Danielle said...

Did you find your stuff?

11 September, 2007 23:21

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Don’t believe one optimistic word from any public figure about the economy or humanity in general. They are all part of the problem. Its like a game of Monopoly. In America, the richest 1% now hold 1/2 OF ALL UNITED STATES WEALTH. Unlike ‘lesser’ estimates, this includes all stocks, bonds, cash, and material assets held by America’s richest 1%. Even that filthy pig Oprah acknowledged that it was at about 50% in 2006. Naturally, she put her own ‘humanitarian’ spin on it. Calling attention to her own ‘good will’. WHAT A DISGUSTING HYPOCRITE SLOB. THE RICHEST 1% HAVE LITERALLY MADE WORLD PROSPERITY ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE. Don’t fall for any of their ‘humanitarian’ CRAP. ITS A SHAM. THESE PEOPLE ARE CAUSING THE SAME PROBLEMS THEY PRETEND TO CARE ABOUT. Ask any professor of economics. Money does not grow on trees. The government can’t just print up more on a whim. At any given time, there is a relative limit to the wealth within ANY economy of ANY size. So when too much wealth accumulates at the top, the middle class slip further into debt and the lower class further into poverty. A similar rule applies worldwide. The world’s richest 1% now own over 40% of ALL WORLD WEALTH. This is EVEN AFTER you account for all of this ‘good will’ ‘humanitarian’ BS from celebrities and executives. ITS A SHAM. As they get richer and richer, less wealth is left circulating beneath them. This is the single greatest underlying cause for the current US recession. The middle class can no longer afford to sustain their share of the economy. Their wealth has been gradually transfered to the richest 1%. One way or another, we suffer because of their incredible greed. We are talking about TRILLIONS of dollars. Transfered FROM US TO THEM. Over a period of about 27 years. Thats Reaganomics for you. The wealth does not ‘trickle down’ as we were told it would. It just accumulates at the top. Shrinking the middle class and expanding the lower class. Causing a domino effect of socio-economic problems. But the rich will never stop. They will never settle for a reasonable share of ANYTHING. They will do whatever it takes to get even richer. Leaving even less of the pie for the other 99% of us to share. At the same time, they throw back a few tax deductable crumbs and call themselves ‘humanitarians’. Cashing in on the PR and getting even richer the following year. IT CAN’T WORK THIS WAY. Their bogus efforts to make the world a better place can not possibly succeed. Any 'humanitarian' progress made in one area will be lost in another. EVERY SINGLE TIME. IT ABSOLUTELY CAN NOT WORK THIS WAY. This is going to end just like a game of Monopoly. The current US recession will drag on for years and lead into the worst US depression of all time. The richest 1% will live like royalty while the rest of us fight over jobs, food, and gasoline. Crime, poverty, and suicide will skyrocket. So don’t fall for all of this PR CRAP from Hollywood, Pro Sports, and Wall Street PIGS. ITS A SHAM. Remember: They are filthy rich EVEN AFTER their tax deductable contributions. Greedy pigs. Now, we are headed for the worst economic and cultural crisis of all time. SEND A “THANK YOU” NOTE TO YOUR FAVORITE MILLIONAIRE. ITS THEIR FAULT. I’m not discounting other factors like China, sub-prime, or gas prices. But all of those factors combined still pale in comparison to that HUGE transfer of wealth to the rich. Anyway, those other factors are all related and further aggrivated because of GREED. If it weren’t for the OBSCENE distribution of wealth within our country, there never would have been such a market for sub-prime to begin with. Which by the way, was another trick whipped up by greedy bankers and executives. IT MAKES THEM RICHER. The credit industry has been ENDORSED by people like Oprah, Ellen, Dr Phil, and many other celebrities. IT MAKES THEM RICHER. Now, there are commercial ties between nearly every industry and every public figure. IT MAKES THEM RICHER. So don’t fall for their ‘good will’ BS. ITS A LIE. If you fall for it, then you’re a fool. If you see any real difference between the moral character of a celebrity, politician, attorney, or executive, then you’re a fool. WAKE UP PEOPLE. ITS ALL ABOUT THE MONEY. The 1% club will always say or do whatever it takes to get as rich as possible. Without the slightest regard for anything or anyone but themselves. Vioxx. Their idea. Sub-prime. Their idea. NAFTA. Their idea. Outsourcing. Their idea. The commercial lobbyist. Their idea. The multi-million dollar lawsuit. Their idea. $200 cell phone bills. Their idea. $200 basketball shoes. Their idea. $30 late fees. Their idea. $30 NSF fees. Their idea. $20 DVDs. Their idea. Subliminal advertising. Their idea. The MASSIVE campaign to turn every American into a brainwashed credit card, pharmaceutical, love-sick, celebrity junkie. Their idea. All of which concentrate the world’s wealth and resources and wreak havok on society. All of which have been CREATED AND ENDORSED by celebrities, athletes, and executives. IT MAKES THEM RICHER. So don’t fall for their ‘ good will’ ‘humanitarian’ BS. ITS A SHAM. NOTHING BUT TAX DEDUCTABLE PR CRAP. Bottom line: The richest 1% will soon tank the largest economy in the world. It will be like nothing we’ve ever seen before. and thats just the beginning. Greed will eventually tank every major economy in the world. Causing millions to suffer and die. Oprah, Angelina, Brad, Bono, and Bill are not part of the solution. They are part of the problem. EXTREME WEALTH HAS MADE WORLD PROSPERITY ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE. WITHOUT WORLD PROSPERITY, THERE WILL NEVER BE WORLD PEACE OR ANYTHING EVEN CLOSE. GREED KILLS. IT WILL BE OUR DOWNFALL. Of course, the rich will throw a fit and call me a madman. Of course, their ignorant fans will do the same. You have to expect that. But I speak the truth. If you don’t believe me, then copy this entry and run it by any professor of economics or socio-economics. Then tell a friend. Call the local radio station. Re-post this entry or put it in your own words. Be one of the first to predict the worst economic and cultural crisis of all time and explain its cause. WE ARE IN BIG TROUBLE.

06 March, 2008 00:19

 

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